That being said nailing down what the divine has in store is like trying to display Jello on the fridge with a magnet or nail it to the wall. Challenging to say the least. But that being said how lovely is it to just lay our trust in something greater than ourselves and listen to the whispers in the night. One thing I have learned is none of us do that to the fullest, not even me and I have been pushed to the edge of some scary cliffs.
A poem that I recently had read to me spoke to my heart and reminds me that the divine choose me not the other way around. I am child of the universe and can connect with all that goes before me and share in the witness of all that is behind me. I am a Christian because I follow the work and life of Jesus, I choose life on this path. Although this poem may not be perfectly articulated the way I would in today's context and culture the message speaks to me and keeps me afloat as I move and am molded by the one who created me:
And the Lord Said Go
the Lord said go
and i said who me
and He said
yes you
and i said
but i’m not
ready yet
and an
important meeting is coming up
and i can’t
leave my work right now
and you know
there is no one to take my place
and He said you’re stalling.
again the
Lord said go
and i said
but i don’t want to
but i don’t want to
and He said
I didn’t ask if you wanted to
and i said listen i’m
not the kind of person
to get
involved in controversy
besides my
family won’t like it
and
what will my neighbours think
and He said
baloney.
and yet a
third time the Lord said go
and i said
do I have to
and He said
do you love me
and i said
look i’m
scared
people are
going to hate me
and cut me
into little pieces
and
i can’t take it all myself
and He said
where do you think I’ll be
and the Lord
said go
and i sighed
here i am
send me.
Sister
Constance
Virginia
Seminary Alumni Magazine
reminds me of the song i sang as a kid at camp:
ReplyDeletei cannot come to the banquet,
don't bother me now,
i have married a wife,
i have bought me a cow,
i have friends and commitments
that cost a pretty sum,
pray hold me excused,
i cannot come
go! all the best in the rest of your journey (been pretty good so far)!