Change is hard however always possible!

#breakingstibah ... as the year comes to a close and 2019 is just days away the excitement builds. I love the changing of the year as it refreshes me and reminds me that I can always start over. I can always change my ways. I can always do something again.

I cannot forget or sweep under the carpet the past however what I can to is learn from it and remember how it is important to honour my choices and honour how I handled a situation when I was less observant.

Mindfulness is key to life's journey. Practice of mindfulness makes for an easier life. Most recently I walked into the corner of the glass table top. I now have a bruise. I laughed as I did it because I have not done that for a very long time. In the past, I did it all the time. Ran into things, bumped into stuff, ran headlong into other staff in my past workplaces, nudged up against bad decisions and was always late.

No more. I have changed and I chose to change. I took life by the horns and wrestled it back around to face me. Like riding on the back of a runaway horse I was the passenger in my own life. The hitchhiker that had been picked up by a runaway train, living in the car of blame, victimhood and complicity. Every way I looked at it I was attached to this whirling dervish of energy I called my life.

No more. It has taken a long time to change, mold and break the routines of my own destruction. Nothing happens overnight. I have lots of work to do yet.

How about you? Have you looked into the mirror lately? Have you held up a looking glass to your life so you can see what you need to change?

Be your own best friend and change your thoughts and your life!

(picture is from 2012, a trip that changed my life)

2019 .... it's almost here! What are your plans?

God Is Consciousness! Even more than that God is also the unconsciousness of human existence... it is that which it means to exist.

Quote by Matthew Fox "Our capacity to think, reflect, ask questions, become aware and more aware, expand awareness, all this is consciousness. Is all this God? Is God our awareness--including our awareness and experience of God? Psychologist R. D. Laing thought this; he felt that 'God is our experience of God.' Deepak Chopra says: 'God is pure consciousness, the source of all thoughts, feelings, and sensations.'"

#breakingstibah is coming to the realization of this quote. Being conscious of your own world and where it is you live.

Two fish are swimming and one says, "how's the water?"** The other says, "what water?" "Follow me!" says the first. They swim hard straight up and burst forth into the air above. While up there the first fish says ... "see, there, that's water!" and then they plunge back down. Often we cannot see or be aware of the "water".

So #breakingstibah asks "how's the water?" Do you know? Are you aware? Come walk with me, talk with me and grow!

2019 is almost here. What goals are you setting for personal growth? What challenges are you laying out for change? #breakingstibah ... a plan, a course, a path.

**Analogy: Eddie O'Connor Ph.D. The Psychology of Performance.

Breaking Stibah ....

So here we are, you and I, talking about breaking stibah.  Sounds like a term that would be attached to a foreign language, a religious ritual or maybe messing with rules and regulations.  Honestly, it is all of that wrapped up into a lifetime of learning.  It's something to be discussed over a cup of tea.

What is breaking stibah?

It is a pattern interrupt.
It is a change of direction.
It is process.
It is "the way" you will travel.
It is learning.
It is hope.

I am Cynthia Breadner and in 2019 I will celebrate my 60th birthday.  This may not be significant to anyone but me, however, I have witnessed 60 years on this planet and every one of the last 39 years has been filled with learnings and life's lessons.  Not one of the last 40 years have I not wondered,  "why I am here on this earth".  Not one of the last 61 have I not known there is a purpose to my existence of which I now better understand.

More recently, over the last 10 - 15 years, I have been engaged in a spiritual journey to find the answers.  I found the answer.  The answer I found is there are no answers.  What I found is more questions and how we ask and live those questions propel us forward and how we grow.  This is what breaking stibah is all about.  Breaking stibah is about breaking through, breaking routine, breaking historical learning and breaking out of your shell.

The word "stibah" was inspired through my reading of the Harry Potter books this past year.  I had pledged to read 12 books cover to cover in 2018 and, with my daughter's probing, I decided to read the seven HP books.  I am currently reading #6 The Half Blood Prince ... I have completed more than my 12 promised books, some were audio as I was reading the Harry Potter series.  In the first book there was the mirror of erised .... from the book comes this,  "Erised stra ehru oyt ube cafru oyt on wohsi"   At this point I am not going to go into what it all means.  If you figure it out maybe it will interest you enough to find out  more about my programs, teaching and leading.  If you cannot see it, then come to my introductory program and you will learn what it is all about.

Walk with me,

Talk with me,

Share the journey with me.

Are you brave enough?

What if I show you everything you need to know?

Contact me today I have the kettle on!

647-234-9351

Cynthia Breadner M.Div., BA Hons., 

Hypnotherapist, Grief Counselor, Healthy Eating and Weight Loss Coach,

Group Fitness Certified, Personal Trainer. 

cynthiabreadner@gmail.com

Fall Programming

2018 Fall ... where did this year go?  I can't believe it!

Now the fall is here I will be launching new programming to add to the momondays Barrie work I am doing.  It is so much fun to build a stage event featuring storytelling and have it be enjoyed by so many people.  Please be sure to visit the link and if you are in the area come to an event.

The work I will be launching this fall is deep in alignment with the practices I have been studying for the past many years.  With going back to school in 2007 as a mature student and learning so much about personal journeying and spiritual care I find I am now able to share that with others.  As humankind we struggle with grief, loss and challenges in everyday life and often do not take the time to recognize or deal with the fallout.  This is baggage that is carried forward into the rest of our life!

Fruitful living comes from mindfulness and from caring about ourselves deeply enough to pay attention.  It is seen by cultural society to pay attention to oneself or to be "selfish" is a sin!  It is not!  To care for self is the ultimate in caring for others.  How many times have you been in an aircraft and had the teaching say, "Put your own oxygen mask on first before you help those around you."  This directive is because unless you are safe and have oxygen you are of no use to anyone else.

Caring for self by exploring the four quadrants of health is a deep and circular exploration.  It is not done quickly, nor is it a one stop shop of learning.  As a person uncovers trauma and peel back the emotional scarring they learn so much more about themselves.  This is an ongoing practice.

I have been there and done this many times over and now am in a safe and rewarding place where I can help others begin their exploratory journey into the body, mind and soul. 

When you are inspired to change and make a difference in your life you can only become better.  Better for you and for your family and friends.  Come with me and join one of my workshop series that is happening in your area.  If you wish to have me facilitate the four quadrant workshop in your town, please contact me at 647 234 9351 or Cynthia.Breadner at gmail dot com.

I would love to hear from you!

the flow of currency

I saw a woman begging on the median just off Yonge street in Newmarket yesterday. My conscious thought is always I am going to hand her some money. Yesterday, being no different, I thought that and reached for my purse remembering all I had was a $20 bill.

I brought my hand back and passed her by and sat at the light. Then I realized this wasn't a moment for her it was a moment for me and I gave her the $20 bill. As she folded it into her hand and bowed to me I realized she did not look at it, nor did I get the recognition for a $20 that my ego needed ... it gave my deeper self the opportunity to shine and bring forth the realization that it was about me letting go of a $20 bill KNOWING there are many $20 bills coming my way at all times. Maybe not in the form of a $20 but in the abundance of enough.

I always have enough and when I allow all currencies to flow, money, spirit, emotion and physical energies ... they all come back to me more abundantly than I can give them away. The sun always finds it way to shine through and is always abundantly fruitful.

A body strong....

This morning I ran hard ... 6.34 kms in about 42 minutes.  I could taste the salt and feel the sweat running down between my breasts and my shoulder blades.  My eyes were burning as the sweat trickled into them.  My nose running with heavy mucus, as it seems to be when I push, that I must snort out to the side, into the grass, taught to me by my dad, clearing the passages of my breathing.  It feels good to push my body and know it can take it.  It feels satisfying to know my heart is beating, my lungs are breathing and my legs are working hard.  This body, 59 years old, is meant to work hard, meant to sweat, meant to strain and push. 

Isak Dinesen (1885-1962) was right.  "Unlike men, who are often getting a little shaky as they approach their sixties or retirement age, many women are feeling more independent, more optimistic, more powerful." (Younger Next Year pg. 4) Women can come into their own as they reach their wisdom years and I am living proof.  Seems like just yesterday I was a young woman of 26 with a baby in her arms heading to the doctor.  The baby was only weeks old and I was struggling with body image and dropped to a frail 105 lbs before realizing I was killing myself.

Women have a lifetime of change.  Biologically we go through so much and endure hormonal changes with or without grace.  We either welcome these changes as a woman's journey and embrace it spiritually or we fight kicking and screaming, angry to the core.  Either way, as we hit our wise years there begins a journey of understanding.  We begin to realize how mother earth nurtures us and we begin to embrace the feminine of our being.  I am there now, at 59 years old I begin the one year preparation to move into the second half of my life.  I have decided to live to 120 years of age and do it with grace and with strength.  This comes from 59 years of dragging and struggling with fitting into the world when I have come to realize I am to stand out.  I am choosing to shoot for the biological stretch, of what the human body is capable of, and live to well over 100 years old. 

Just in the past year, I have witnessed what my body is capable of taking on.  In March 2017, right after my grandson was born, my daughter was beginning her journey back to strength.  Her words, "you should train with me Mom!"  Those six words changed my life.  I have always been fit and continued a life of strength training and group fitness classes, but had dropped off consistency or any sort of plan.  By her encouraging and, more-so, challenging me I stepped onto the road and began. 

Last year, I completed five long distance running races and three triathlons in my first year of training.  That was where it started.  The seed was planted and my desire to grow this challenge began.  Today I ran 6.34 kms in about 42 minutes.  Yesterday I rode with the Barrie Baydogs social ride 42 kms in 2.25 hrs and on Thursday last week I swam 500 meters in open water at Kempenfelt Bay.  

I choose to continue to grow and listen to my spirit.  I choose to be healthy and let go of the stresses in our world.  I am caring about my own needs and bringing them to the forefront of my life and ensuring I am taken care of, because if I don't take care of me, who will?

Walk with me on this journey.  Stay beside me and let me encourage you ... Can you put yourself first for a change and let go of the world, just for a minute?


"The cure for anything is salt water: sweat, tears or the sea."  Isak Dinesen

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