Peter Pan ... "I don't wanna grow up...

I'll  never grow up ... not me!   Peter Pan... Never Grow up...

I have been actively using FB and other social media to promote and work on some passions.  Upon settling in Bradford a year ago now it has been fun to find out what I want to do when I grow up.

Who am I?  Many of my friends and family call me a bit of a gypsy and that is true.  Now it is time to put down roots close to my children and grandson.  That being said I am still a child at heart and feel like I am a naughty teenager.  I think that has something to do with my Leo horoscope status.  A Leo is mid-point between Aries and Pisces being a soulful teenager wanting to explore.

Some qualities of a Leo are:

Leo Strength Keywords:
- Confident
- Ambitious
- Generous
- Loyal
- Encouraging

Leo Weakness Keywords:

- Pretentious
- Domineering
- Melodramatic
- Stubborn and Vain
Leo is very independent but they need something to control and someone to admire them and appreciate them. They are fully capable of being greatly successful on their own but they are much happier if they have an audience and a following of people who look up to them. They would prefer not be alone.

As I read I know they are all true of me because I have spent time inside my own skin, learning about me and what makes me tick.  Have you?

So further than being a Leo "who am I?" Or better yet "who do I think I am?"  I think empathetically and feel compassion.  I taste life with vigor and smell a rat when things are not right.  I can hear the voices clearly in my own psyche when the unconscious mind is screaming for attention and my consciousness or awareness is avoiding hearing the screams.  I love deeply, passionately fight, soulfully feel and hungrily explore.  When I sleep, I sleep.  Soundly and with a deep and profound understanding that it is THEE most important time of my day.

I am accumulating life's experience. I was born in 1959 on the cusp of the 60's.  I remember the Beatles' on Ed Sullivan and wore bell bottomed pants the first time they came 'round.  I know life with only three television channels and my family never had a microwave until after I moved out, long after.  I secretly got birth control when I was 14 from a progressive doctor in the local community never realizing it only became legal for a woman to take it, about 10 years before.  I have suffered with teenage depression and stress, alcoholism, drug addiction and sexual promiscuity  I have prayed to a god that may or may not have helped me, I don't know, and I have damned that same god.  I have raised two children as a single mother only to, most recently, spend time with their father, and look back on the years that have past.  I regret the pain I caused him many years ago.  So what did I do?  I apologized.  It is never too late to admit one's errors and pain.  I have buried two siblings and my parents.  I lived through my son's near death dirt bike crash in 2009, a week before my mother died, and his subsequent addictions and him fighting his way back to health.   I am elated by my daughter's climb to be an amazing musician and an even music teacher/conductor.  I have studied intently what it means to be self-aware, theological, spiritual, and faced down demons while joyously being thankful for the angels in my life.  I have grown to believe that wisdom comes with age but cannot be imposed on others.  Like a butterfly landing on a flower .... I am the flower full of the earth's strength, blowing in the wind, inviting the bees and the butterflies to come and visit but only when they choose to can I engage.

I believe in myself and want to share all that I have learned with others ... I have finally overcome the final chapter of what I needed to do in order to feel confident and have come full circle to help others. I believe in myself and I believe in you.  You can do it too.  You can find the divine mystery that lives within you and tap into the power it holds.  You can tether yourself to the creative seeds of strength that reside in you as a created being on this ball in the universe and weather any storm.  You can find the strength you need to fend off stress, beat any fear, and grow roots from your feet into Mother Earth.

Come on a spiritual journey with me.  Let me guide you and care about you.  Let me listen to you and help you find your way.  Spiritual renewal is tangible and is abundant when you know where to find it and look for it.  Come with me ... walk into the darkness and be amazed at what grows.  Plant your own seeds for your future.  Love yourself ....

Spirit Care 101 - Bradford, West Gwillimbury - Women's Spirituality Group ... message me for more details.  Do you want to start a Spirit Care 101 in your neighbourhood?  Let me help!  The new community of faith coming soon.... the community begins with you!

As a side or closing note, I want to share with you that for the past 10 years I have been working within Christian ministry.  That being said "church" as we know it is falling off the cultural radar and, rightfully so, diminishing in popularity.  I think this is a good thing.  It is a good thing because doctrines and past faith statements about a "god" in the sky dictating or judging is not where I find strength.  I find strength in a spiritual understanding which is linked to something beyond human understanding.  It has nothing to do with heaven/hell, or what happens after death, or whether prayers are answered.  This divine calling is reachable by all human beings who wish to touch the source of life and define it for themselves.

Remember "We are not human beings having a spiritual experience, We are Spiritual Beings having a human experience."  Pierre Teilhard de Chardin

What does your spirit say to you?  Come on your own spiritual journey with me.  

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