I was chatting with a FB bestie today, someone I have never met and yet seems to be the best friend I have in the world at times, and he was asking me about my latest move. He has walked with me for about five years now. When someone asks I actually have to really think and assess it.
I have done some deep wound and soul work. I have scars that are visible, but most are not. I have looked deeply within myself and as I do research and listen to other wise people who seem to be questing I hear things that touch me to the very soul. I have studied the work of Dr. Wayne Dyer, Louise Hay, Jesus, Deepak Chopra to name a few. I have dug into a theological program and become so spiritually in tune that those around me cannot understand me.
Brene Brown has recently surfaced on my radar and I have now watched her two TED talks. I have come back to this theme so much in the past 10 years. Shame. What is shame? Brene says, "shame is an epidemic in our culture..." Do you know what your shame is? Can you even go there? Shame is the key to risk taking and allowing vulnerability.
It requires deep, deep desire to dive into the water. When I was chatting with my friend today and he suggested I need a good "therapist". Finding a person who can help me requires them to have gone further than I have and I have witnessed and found through research that most people do not go there, and those who provide the service often have not witnessed it themselves. So this is what I said to him:
"...it is like the ocean... most sit in a boat on the top wishing they could jump in... some do and snorkel never going deep enough to leaving the O2 behind ... some strap on a tank and go down a little and others might go into the depths... however, I FEEL so deep that I can't come back... I need to have someone who has been deeper than I am and has never come back... I need to be present with the divine mystery and those who are vulnerable enough to admit it. That is why I am good at what I do and can be with people as they crawl out of the boat and decide to take the plunge. I am good at what I do because I am below them knowing I have come through the deep and survived to this point to share my wisdom. I am good at what I do because I have the empathy and openness to hear the pain and not shudder, listen and not judge, weep along side and share my own story.
Brene also says, "vulnerability is the birthplace of innovation, creativity and change". Unless you are willing to be vulnerable, recognize shame in your life, it is very difficult to witness creativity and change in your life. What feels like a breakdown turned around is spiritual awareness and without change spiritual change cannot occur.
Yesterday as I was traveling in the country I found these four legged friends... I wanted a photo ... as soon as I stopped and got out they all came running toward me. Open, vulnerable and curious. Can you be like these four legged friends?
Live life openly and with vulnerability ....