Do you ever feel like the guy on the table? The one who has been hit with a rock and it has not only knocked you out but knocked some sense into you? I feel this way often since being catapulted from Ontario to British Columbia so quickly. I have now been here three months, that is 12 Sundays there-abouts. Listening, watching and re-acting. Hearing, seeing and advancing. Some days it is painful and others it is glorious. Much of my learning is steeped in First Nation's teachings and I am very aware of the "four directions".
It is here in these mountains I can see the mystery and hear her voice. The spirit calls me to be faithful and true. To look and see what is really there. Peel back the layers and unveil the treasure there is to behold. Buried deep under pain and scarring is the face of the child, that baby that comes to us each year in the manger. A reminder that a baby changes everything.
Wham! There is that rock, knocking me off my "know-it-all" pedestal. Slamming me to the earth skinning my knees and breaking the soft skin of my hands. But as I am there, on my knees looking up at this beauty I am reminded the sun will come out and I will see the way, if I just humble myself to watch and wait for it. I turn a different direction and see the dark cloudy rain. I turn once again and there is white fog and blue sky and it is then I turn back to the rainbow. There it is, the promise of life yet to come, a pot of gold holding the treasures of divine love, a reminder that no matter what I am loved.
The old song from Annie, the sun will come out tomorrow is one that I will take with me into the winter of my existence. The promise is that tomorrow is another day and if we have faith, hope and trust in something beyond us that creates rainbows and sunshine then there is always a reason to smile.
"Life does and will go on whether I fail at geometry or not" Anne of Green Gables. It is our choice whether we welcome this life with all its warts or choose to reject it. I choose to live and I choose to be happy and I choose to be faithful. I also choose to look at the divine from all directions because some days one direction is easier to take than others. That is what makes it so great. We have choices...
Blessings my friends blessings ...
Posted by Cynthia Breadner at 16:59
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