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Spirit Care 101Cynthia Breadnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01594451338849985090noreply@blogger.comBlogger158125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3572644340260069035.post-50277178632716657892021-01-20T11:44:00.001-05:002021-01-20T11:44:10.804-05:00Coming to life ...<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiliUERHpzeRfd2YLMGrVGYVsYEtWAvz-aRUWFalzPpT4HLT-516LA27Dn0e4KNjvRX-lJNdtzYsKaOL5k7ZNbJNlsIbG8Ihyphenhyphen1MqQOda6DPn5blJUIXSLxOnXBX3Fzyz1mp7rcl9q8jlH3i/s2048/62103308426__4FA87997-DC53-44D4-8310-F798B1B49B1F.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiliUERHpzeRfd2YLMGrVGYVsYEtWAvz-aRUWFalzPpT4HLT-516LA27Dn0e4KNjvRX-lJNdtzYsKaOL5k7ZNbJNlsIbG8Ihyphenhyphen1MqQOda6DPn5blJUIXSLxOnXBX3Fzyz1mp7rcl9q8jlH3i/s320/62103308426__4FA87997-DC53-44D4-8310-F798B1B49B1F.jpeg" /></a></div><br />Over the past year, 2020, so much has come to life for me. I am growing my therapy practice and am an author and weekly column writer. I have opened an online e-learning school and have become a grandmother again. 2020 was so good to me and I am very happy. I hope you are too. With that I have not been visiting my blog as often as I write and post in the weekly e-paper so you are welcome to follow my writings through my webpage or register for my weekly newsletter. Here is the link to the most recent offering! <p></p><p><a href="https://www.bradfordtoday.ca/local-news/column-integrating-spirituality-into-our-lives-brings-awareness-and-strength-3270052" target="_blank">Bradford Today Weekly Column</a><br /></p><p>I thank you for following my work and caring about this energetic time on our planet. 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Caring for the spirit is deep and passionate care about the self and will enhance mental health and well being overall." 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Many of us do. Barbara Brown Taylor wrote a whole book on "Learning to Walk in the Dark" and it helped me so much. Grief and loss and life's challenges walk along side us all the time. It is how we cope that can bring out the rich learnings. My column covers much of these feelings:</p><p><a href="https://www.innisfiltoday.ca/local-news/growing-from-grief-2557612" target="_blank">Walk with me, Talk with me</a></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgsk6bbNoouzigYh-mPv2pLEEReHoImQocTdYFecXmbp-VNdz0yuASwLGLYMebeUJ0U2sbYKlue-MV9cBloKqS2joTIdJ9xSd6_BEmzHn1EK4RChm1kLGKuxum-dGo_Ot1It9bxZ9Vp19Z9/s1024/SDC15792.JPG" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1024" data-original-width="768" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgsk6bbNoouzigYh-mPv2pLEEReHoImQocTdYFecXmbp-VNdz0yuASwLGLYMebeUJ0U2sbYKlue-MV9cBloKqS2joTIdJ9xSd6_BEmzHn1EK4RChm1kLGKuxum-dGo_Ot1It9bxZ9Vp19Z9/s320/SDC15792.JPG" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p>Cynthia Breadnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01594451338849985090noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3572644340260069035.post-44348137781257640552020-06-23T08:10:00.000-04:002020-06-23T08:10:02.785-04:00Birdsong...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span lang="EN-US">Birdsong… what’s in the message. As I ponder over my tea, sometimes coffee, these mornings in the early summer I watch as the sun rises and the dew dries on the grass. I hear all the birds singing their various songs. It is so beautiful to my ears and I love it. Can you imagine the scene? Close your eyes and picture your favorite place to sit and listen to the birds. Sitting in your favorite chair with the sun shining, your favorite morning drink in your hand, maybe a book or a magazine, and you simply stop and listen. The birdsong of Ontario is so loud and clear and beautiful. How many different birds are their making up this song? Where are they? I can hear them but I cannot see them. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">I remember last year in Ireland we were hiking the Aran Islands heading up to the ruins and there was a robin, in a tree at eye level. This was an Irish robin, so tiny compared to our Ontario robins. Much much smaller than what I was accustomed to seeing in Canada. This robin tiny we robin drew my attention with its song! This robin was singing a very loud song just for me. I stopped to listen, it was so beautiful. I feared if I moved it would fly away, so I stood and listened. When I stepped closer and the bird never feared I moved even closer. I decided to take out my camera and take a picture and it stayed. All the while singing its heart out for me and who ever stopped to listen. A crowd gathered and the little beak was open and the song was clear and beautiful. I watched and the tiny wee black eyes were looking right at me and they were saying, “this song is for you!” and the bird continued to sing. This little bird sang its heart out, at my eye level, that very day. I stood and watched and listened for a very long time. I do not speak bird so I have no idea what the message was I could only decipher it on a sound level. That sound level was crystal clear and angelic. I captured it and in my heart and my mind’s ear it remains to this day.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">Today, with all that is happening around us I am harkened back to Inishmore and listen to that bird’s song, the unknown message continues to be a mystery, however the beauty is still clear. In its own way of communicating the bird was telling me their story. We often have that happen through song or speech when we cannot understand language. French composers and writers, German lyrics, or instrumental language speaking in native tongue for us to hear and absorb that has the ability to bring us to tears with its beauty. We do not analyze the message we feel it, because we do not speak the language we simply must be moved energetically and it is powerful.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">As there are so many voices on the horizon today speaking out in a language I can understand … it is in English, yet the message is almost more than I can take in. It is brutal and heartbreaking that we are able, as humans, to treat other humans in a way that justifies the need for protests and solidarity. We are speaking out in fear against a dis-ease that we know nothing about, and we are in troubling times. Oh, to return to the song of the robin and simply go back to Inishmore and be by that little robin once more. Can I do that today with all the song and voices in the world’s pain? How can I hear it all not as a cacophony but as a symphony? The robin’s song I heard energetically, and knew it was good. I did not need to understand the language, the message was from divine source singing to me to be just, fair, understanding, kind and loving. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">In these troubled times I choose to continue to hear the messages with kindness in my heart. The song of all people in a global society and culture where 100 years ago local community was all we had. It is a new environment to be knowing of the world’s woes and work toward a just society with so much input.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">May you listen and hear in the language of love and caring. May you have the ability to know there are voices raised we cannot understand and yet can tell by the tone and the intention there is pain present. May you show compassion and empathy for your neighbours and hear the song of the robin whistling in your ears. Feel it and choose to listen with no judgement or rebuttal, listen to all songs and simply hear what is said with no intent to respond. In the work I do as a death doula and grief worker all anyone wants to know is they are heard. They want to speak their pain into a world that will accept it and care about it. Choose to simply stand with others in love and in hope that all songs are heard loud enough to disrupt the entrenched pattern of lives past lived in complacency and disrespect. Trust as a human species that we have it in us to sooth the pain and sing one song of soulful love and unity. Start at home, in your own life, read your own bias, hear your own story and then reach out to sing with and to others. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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When do we begin an assumption? When is it we decide about 'things'? Who gives us the world view we hold and how do we arrive at any momentary perceived reality? </div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">The assumption: I am not wanted here in this role at this place. I live with that assumption every day every place I go. It has overflowed into isolated running that I do, I feel it. I struggle to go out the door to anything I do, and have now realized it is because of this assumption. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">How did I identify this assumption? When I returned to the work place after a 3 weeks absence many said to me "Welcome back, I missed you!" and "Oh good you are back, we missed you!" and "It is so good to see you, glad you are back" and "Isn't she amazing? So glad she is back" These are all wonderful, genuine comments said to remind me I am loved, valued and cared about. What did I do? Dismissed them and somewhere in my world view/assumption the tiniest of message kept popping in saying, "they are all lying" .... what? where did that come from? As I came home last night and today I sat on this dichotomy of conversation in my own head. I sat in three virtual places ... me in one chair, the comments and persons in another chair, and then my spiritual self overlooking the two and I realized something so deep. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">It goes back to my own alligator tail story (that's for another day) where I deeply have never felt right wherever I am. I have for many years felt like an imposter and a fraud. That people will figure out I have no idea what I am talking about even tho' I talk a good talk, walk a good walk and so on... deep in myself I have no belief in what I do and what my spirit is calling me to do. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Wow ... does this make any sense to anyone else. If you struggle with imposter syndrome, or this idea that you are a fraud, it is hard to break that habit... that said it can be done! </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Keep working at it... do what I am doing... sitting with these lovely compliments and showering myself in them and show that wee voice it is wrong. I am valid, I do know what I am doing and I have the right to do what it is I am doing!</span></div>
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Cynthia Breadnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01594451338849985090noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3572644340260069035.post-35858214841289000982020-05-03T09:37:00.002-04:002020-05-03T09:41:42.238-04:00Grief can kill you .... don't let it!<div class="" data-block="true" data-editor="8tdnt" data-offset-key="849ps-0-0" style="background-color: white; color: #1d2129; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, system-ui, ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;">
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<span data-offset-key="849ps-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">I'm sharing this memory post to secure that I can get at these pictures again, I had lost them. It is funny, just yesterday I remembered this drive. I only did the Bella Coola drive, over the pass, a few times. So they are vivid in my mind. Yesterday I was remembering, spiritually, my sense of awe in myself, doing this journey, as I travelled the road through the river valley that lead up to the higher elevations heading west to Bella Coola. </span><br />
<span data-offset-key="849ps-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">I was feeling distressed and anxious returning to a place where I did not feel I was doing well and was so depressed. </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">This was 12 months of personal hell for me, with the final straw being the night I went out to the garage to see if it was air tight enough to hold the fumes long enough. I am sure you can get the drift. That was the changing moment when I knew I needed to return home upright before they brought me home in an urn. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">It wasn't the people or the place or the posting that almost killed me it was my own personal demons, my own fear and depression, my lack of confidence in my own abilities and the grief I had bottled up after five+ years of study and putting my own spirit aside striving to reach my perception of other's expectations. I was spent and I was worn out and I was exhausted of any semblance of self-care abilities. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">That said, I came back! I suffered the humiliation of "quitting" as many accused me. I endured the wrath of the people I hurt by not completing the two years as planned. I suffered and cried as people yelled at me that I had let them down and I stood in shame as people I respected stood up, disdainfully stared me down as they stormed from the room. </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">I returned to my own soul and my own spirit despite what I the outside repercussions were, I partnered with the divine source and healed myself and I am here today to tell the story, witness life on the heavenly side after depression and breakdown. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">I am here to help others as they are walking the road of darkness. I am here, that is the blessing in all of this, I came pretty close to not being here anymore. </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">Life can be better and you can make it. I know it is a hard journey back and with the right tools and teacher you can build your life again. </span></div>
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Cynthia Breadnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01594451338849985090noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3572644340260069035.post-3259192208224861752020-04-30T09:19:00.003-04:002020-04-30T09:22:07.168-04:00Aging 101<div class="" data-block="true" data-editor="8kjiu" data-offset-key="cabfi-0-0" style="background-color: white; color: #1c1e21; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, system-ui, ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;">
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I love it ... as a 60 year old woman every day I must remind myself I have 40 years left to live. It is my intention to live to be 100 years old and do it with health and vitality. It saddens me watching people shrink into despair and treat their bodies like a trash bin. It saddens me when people are spiritually stunted simply because religion has turned them off or because they are choosing not to continue learning, growing and exploring. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">This woman inspires me as does the 82 year old man I met the other day out walking, exercising his ankle so he can get back to running! Start with the grief in life and grow from there and anyone can be the best they can be leading long, happy and healthy lives.</span><span style="font-family: inherit;">I went to university when I was 57 to take a BA Hons and completed it in 3 years, I went on to complete a masters degree before I was 55 and am heading to U of T (Emmanuel College) in September 2020 to take a second masters in spiritual care and psychotherapy. I hunger to learn. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">I hold three fitness certificates through CanFitPro: Group fitness leader, personal trainer, and healthy eating and weight loss coach. </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">I run as much as I am motivated to run when not focused on a goal. Goals force me to be structured. I have two races left this summer that I am hoping will not be cancelled. One is an Olympic in September (An olympic is 2 km run, 40 km bike, 10 km run. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">I eat very well choosing creation cooking over boxes, tins and jars. I love ice cream with maple syrup and must check myself not to eat more than I should and yet sometimes do. I care for my spirit and live a life of curiosity as opposed to anger and blame. These did not come easy it took some mirror gazing.</span><span style="font-family: inherit;">This is the work I do when I work with others. Helping them work through the grief in life to find the sunshine. I have found the sunshine even on days like today when I love the rain. </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">I do it without expectation. I simply do it to make the world a better place. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">In this article I quote her, "What I’ve seen so far is that the crisis has brought out the best in good people and the worst in bad people. What I see now is that cooperation and empathy on a massive scale are needed to bring the world back on track."</span><span style="font-family: inherit;">Are you back on track? If you are not I can help! I can listen and give you tools and suggestions. </span></div>
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Cynthia Breadnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01594451338849985090noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3572644340260069035.post-13186041420131898482020-04-26T09:43:00.001-04:002020-04-26T09:43:17.450-04:00You can't give what you don't have ...In this light of this isolation and social distancing I have had much time to reflect and be with myself. I live alone so, while many of you are climbing the walls while children drive you crazy or a spouse or partner is getting on your last nerve those of us who live alone find there are quiet rooms and little conversation. It is lovely, I must admit, because with the wonderful technology today I can video chat or reach out whenever I want. I can then enjoy the quiet of my space the rest of the time.<br />
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These are blood oranges. Squeeze a blood orange and you get rich beautiful dark orange juice because it is all the blood orange has to give. Should you squeeze a tomato you get tomato guts ... you do not get ketchup! Ketchup is processed, altered and changed. It has in it what the manufacturer wants you to taste. Ketchup is created for a purpose so grab the ketchup bottle and you get tomato mixed with other ingredients, do not expect tomato guts.<br />
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You may be wondering what the theme of all this is. You cannot give what you do not have. If you are squeezed what comes out .... when times are tough, when you are grieving: angry, depressed, bargaining, denying .... what comes out of you? Or does anything come out ..? Is your skin so thick that squeezed you simply cave in and there is nothing to share.<br />
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<br />Cynthia Breadnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01594451338849985090noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3572644340260069035.post-13111003625655981692019-07-25T09:41:00.000-04:002019-07-25T09:41:08.467-04:00in the Vortex....What is a vortex? A vortex is defined as a mass of whirling fluid or air, especially a whirlpool or whirlwind. It is often seen as destructive or something to be feared. That said, what if you were to put all your desires and passions into the vortex and let them strengthen and meld together and then touch down in your life? What if you were to trust there is a vortex of divine love just waiting to take you places that you can only imagine at this point because they are in your dreams? What if I was to tell you these dreams are simply a thought away? <br />
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For the past 40 years I have been dreaming about what I desire and then thinking my way into my own self destruction ... then in January of 2018 I woke up, I dried out, I set aside that which was most in my way. Alcohol and my own thoughts. How many times have you been doing something and when all was said and done, you looked at it and said, "ah man, I knew that was going to happen!" and it was not what you wanted to happen, but it was what you "knew" would happen? This is what I am talking about. The deep belief of our thoughts that dictate the path of our lives.<br />
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I am so excited about the third trimester of my life I can barely live with myself. I have finally unleashed the passion that has been in my heart and I am living a place of deep knowing. This knowing is the divine source of my spirit and soul that pines and wants only joy and happiness for me. I have arrived at the place where my spirit and soul are now in the driver's seat and the EGO is a healthy dose of direction and guidance instead of a dictating, challenging and harmful noise.<br />
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So here I am, on top of the world ready to launch into 30 more years of my life, happy, healthy, passionate and proud. Come with me, won't you? Talk to me, ask me how I did it! Let me share my learnings and help you get where you want to be.<br />
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This past week I was in first aid training and met an amazing young man. He is so observant and he is on a path to finding this deep passion. He is so far ahead of where I was in my 20's and I am envious only because I love where I am so much I wish I had learned it earlier, but I didn't. So now I can make the best of the next 30 years and let go of the past.<br />
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The divine love I am witnessing is big enough for all. There is room for all and through proper channels and hard work you can be here too. I want to help. No fees, no strings, no programs (unless you want one) just conversation and community. Come join me #breakingstibah .... be the best you can be.<br />
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<br />Cynthia Breadnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01594451338849985090noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3572644340260069035.post-1588154510601681542019-06-27T09:35:00.000-04:002019-06-27T09:44:42.955-04:00Journey to IrelandAs I work through the planning of the trip to Ireland this September there is much more to it than the flight, accommodation and meal planning. For me it is a journey a long time coming. It started in the 1700's where the ancestors are rooted. Not just for Irish lands, for history and past lives lived, and a place that bears roots to my own existence.<br />
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As I work through my life planning the third trimester this trip to Ireland is the pivot point of the next <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fY6L7YMkVhA" target="_blank">thirty years</a> ... it seems I have come to the place where I am now ready and spiritually able to do what I came to do. Fulfill what I believe is my "bus stop" conversation. Spend time observing and perfecting the "soul contract" or soul's purpose that I have uncovered. Bring to fruition that which is deep in my heart.<br />
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The <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=twyd3gXGIKQ" target="_blank">"bus stop"</a> experience story or the finding of your <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4nIAwUJv2Eo" target="_blank">"soul's purpose"</a> is a deep understanding of who you are spiritually. What does your spirit look like? What is your purpose? How can you find yourself? Why would you want to do so? All deep questions that I have pondered over the past20 years and beyond. As a little girl I always talked out loud to myself, answering the questions that seemed to be present in my mind. Thinking in duality. I am sure if I had shared this I would have been wrapped up and sent to the hospital as being unwell. This craft of talking with myself has come full circle. It is part of why I wish to return my soul/spirit to Ireland to stand on the ground where Robert and Eliza began. I realize there is more beyond Robert Breadner, splat here (born) January 26, 1796 and he was a child of the evolutional self that is now me, and so I know it is just two points on the continuum of lives lived. It feels right and full and real for me to begin my next thirty years there in Ireland, in the County of Armagh. This means of being connected to the self from the time I was quite small is the remnants of my childhood angelic state that most of us forget. Today I am my own best friend, my own greatest fan, lover, companion and truly my own source of greatest peace.<br />
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My work is to take the first 60 years of my life's lessons and share the wisdom with others as I walk with them along their way. Give them tools and experience as their teachers so they too can find their own way to fulfillment. My job takes me to the intersection where that can happen and my "jobs" always have done that. I have had many jobs because the jobs are the feint, or the deception, of the heart to take me along the road.<br />
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What is your life's work? Are you simply a pawn in the game of life? These questions now have meaning for me where I have found clarity and see more clearly. Such a gift. The next thirty years for me will be living out this work I am being called to listen to; that which is the soul contract my spirit signed up for. Can you face and find your call? Come and walk with me, let me guide you and be your beacon, stepping ahead and keeping you on track ...<br />
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<br />Cynthia Breadnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01594451338849985090noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3572644340260069035.post-85111611373838888332019-05-27T12:00:00.001-04:002019-05-27T12:00:10.060-04:00New AdventuresThe work I am engaged with for myself continues to lead me down paths of desire and hope where I am able to engage with others. Yesterday I attended the inaugural council meeting of the faith community I have been engaged with for over five years. I have been searching and seeking to be one of them. The last time I engaged in process it did not go so well. <br />
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#breakingstibah is key to my survival. As I seek to break my own poor habits, choices and engagements with that which does not serve me I will continue to feel abandoned and losing hope. Yesterday I was given hope. Hope came in the hugs of welcome from those I had not seen in a very long time. Hope came in the encouragement that I received to continue the quest. Hope comes in the form of a blog post landing in my vision today reminding me about the green man and my love of planet. Hope comes as I refuse to give up on what my soul and spirit are hungry for, to build community and find a place for the weary to rest in a world that continues to explode with technology and pressure to perform.<br />
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I have begun painting and writing again and choosing to step back from that which does not serve me. I continue to run and cycle feeding my physical self with the exercise I need to stay strong and healthy. I continue to eat right (well, mostly with the exception of my love of frozen yogurt) and nourish my cells and biology. Most of all I continue to nourish my soul with reading and steeping myself in those who I trust in wisdom.<br />
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I collected all my flower photos last night into a virtual file and am going to create a book of them for myself. I hold dear the quest of the bloom to continue to come back each year after a cold dark winter. I relish in the beauty and colour of flowers bursting forth into existence and Mother Nature's way of colouring up the landscape. Spring is here and summer slumber is upon us. So continues my journey to love, lead and share time with anyone wanting to join me.<br />
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Cynthia Breadnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01594451338849985090noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3572644340260069035.post-6767831664154468532019-05-13T10:01:00.001-04:002019-05-13T10:01:02.435-04:00Is it magic?In my philosophies and beliefs is a true understanding that when we choose to see there is a world that opens up to us, available to everyone, however we must choose to believe and see. It is a magical place of energies and messages from those spirits who travel with us. Spirits from our time on earth that have left this earthly realm and many others who are sent to us by the Uni-Verse (One-Song) to walk with us on our journey and make life beautiful. As we mar our basic five earthly senses with poor diet choices, attitude and vices (eg alcohol, prescription drugs and street drugs) we place scales on our eyes and flaps over our ears. Our senses are restricted to a dull roar of a world marred in challenge and crap. <br />
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Last night I did not sleep as soundly as I might have. I had written a submission for a book before going to bed so my soul was out and about revisiting all the past doings I have experienced. I was restless and slumbering just below the surface and just above the REM sleep necessary for rest. I awoke at 8:50 am which is late for me. As I sat up, after stretching and thanking my body, I was putting my socks on from the side of my bed. I did not have my glasses on and so when I saw the gold shiny object on the carpet about four feet in front of me, I was so thankful as I realized it was one of my precious earrings that I wear. I immediately reached to touch my lobes and all four earrings were present and accounted for. I put on my glasses and finished putting on my socks moving about looking directly at the shiny gold object and put on my house shoes. With my glasses on I could see it even more clearly and it still resembled the gold hoop earring I wear only with small tines that looked crown like. It was then that I rose and reached for it as I did it disappeared for a split second and I lost track of it. I returned to the bed to see it again and there it was so I focused on the spot and reached again. When I touched the carpet where it was sitting it was not there.<br />
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Right now I am grieving the death of a friend. I am so sad. She was 79 years old, full of life, until she wasn't because her heart simply stopped. No one could do anything. She called 911 herself, I am told. Walked out to the ambulance I am told, and then she went to the hospital, and died. I am so sad. So how can grief be good?<br />
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I am not saying grief "feels" good, I am saying grief can be good. It is a symbol of love, of passion and of life's engagement. Should you never witness grief then I dare to say you are not living. Grief is a symbol of loss in life. The challenge is how you handle it, how you cope, and what tools you have to work through it. That is where I can help.<br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjrsCCEhm4jHl6P1Ih5ZXpl575-saTJH9oYY8JddwSKrasVIFGRFF7_dsxVAmntO2BbHCP1JkSXDj0C9hxXHqVoXXjsigqcbWTHS-WeSphCH1QrmXcMWqxkvsqzBEED1i7FE3eIN5c-ZAbN/s1600/Hope+and+Cope.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="539" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjrsCCEhm4jHl6P1Ih5ZXpl575-saTJH9oYY8JddwSKrasVIFGRFF7_dsxVAmntO2BbHCP1JkSXDj0C9hxXHqVoXXjsigqcbWTHS-WeSphCH1QrmXcMWqxkvsqzBEED1i7FE3eIN5c-ZAbN/s320/Hope+and+Cope.jpg" width="179" /></a>My passion for grief has been long standing. I presided as witness and clergy to family funerals. I delivered the eulogy at my father's funeral in 2005. I then was given the gift of doing it again at our mother's funeral and I presided and facilitated the funeral of my brother who died, at 56, in 2011. It was through these moments I realized I have a gift for understanding and grieving death for many. I have the tools and I have love so great my arms can wrap around the world.<br />
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Death is part of living. Benjamin Franklin said there were only two things certain in life: death and taxes. Many have gone further to say, 'too bad they don't come in that order'. When we befriend death and welcome it into our lives before we must deal with it, dealing with it is so much easier. Grieving allows us to look death in the eye and say, "you will not defeat me." In the Christian faith, the death of Jesus is the climax of his life, only to be the beginning of his work in his death. Through the resurrection story we can claim rebirth and life after death in so many ways. <br />
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This is the challenge I am choosing to take on. Teaching and coaching people to have a better relationship with dying. Not only physical human death, that is one form, but also death of a job, death of a relationship, death of a home, and so on, and so on. Ask questions and I will answer. Come to the corner of hope and cope and I will be there to walk with you!<br />
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Cynthia Breadnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01594451338849985090noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3572644340260069035.post-82708940710646554132019-01-13T08:34:00.003-05:002019-01-13T08:34:52.784-05:00I am on my way....<div class="" data-block="true" data-editor="c3dv8" data-offset-key="atd3c-0-0" style="background-color: white; color: #1d2129; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, system-ui, ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;">
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjouLm-HcQZrNd0OcEObV-CwU06y5bqHTHsqA9vDn2Cgk-sUMD2hiD8cBufyruID_uXkce5dSlEHTO0hrv6M8uw6Oe3xQkO7zOM0KtTfMjK6wqbm7C4mNiB9C71y9tc21qfLw0JfKm_UoB_/s1600/IMG_20140312_092935.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="1200" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjouLm-HcQZrNd0OcEObV-CwU06y5bqHTHsqA9vDn2Cgk-sUMD2hiD8cBufyruID_uXkce5dSlEHTO0hrv6M8uw6Oe3xQkO7zOM0KtTfMjK6wqbm7C4mNiB9C71y9tc21qfLw0JfKm_UoB_/s320/IMG_20140312_092935.jpg" width="240" /></a><span data-offset-key="atd3c-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">As I begin 2019, I have made a decision it is a pivotal year. </span><span blockkey="atd3c" class="_5zk7" contentstate="j { "entityMap": undefined, "blockMap": OrderedMap { "atd3c": a { "key": "atd3c", "type": "unstyled", "text": "As I begin 2019, I have made a decision it is a pivotal year. #breakingstibah is coming into focus and culminating all I have done over the past 15 years toward focusing on what I have to offer the world and pulling together years of experience and wisdom. Just Sunday past, January 6, I celebrated and honoured 40 years of marriage. I am not married to him, and haven't been for years, however I celebrated because it is part of my history that at 18 years old I made decisions not because I wanted necessarily to be married, but I made the decision based on culture, acceptance and road of least resistance and now can see that clearly. 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Just Sunday past, January 6, I celebrated and honoured 40 years of marriage. I am not married to him, and haven't been for years, however I celebrated because it is part of my history that at 18 years old I made decisions not because I wanted necessarily to be married, but I made the decision based on culture, acceptance and road of least resistance and now can see that clearly. I text him and he responded and we fondly and lovingly have dinner together when he is available knowing life is what it is and we honour each others journey.</span></div>
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<span data-offset-key="agisd-0-0" style="font-family: inherit;">Turning 60 this year I am beginning once again on a quest to deepen my relationship with myself and building programs that will help others do the same. </span><span blockkey="agisd" class="_5zk7" contentstate="j { "entityMap": undefined, "blockMap": OrderedMap { "atd3c": a { "key": "atd3c", "type": "unstyled", "text": "As I begin 2019, I have made a decision it is a pivotal year. #breakingstibah is coming into focus and culminating all I have done over the past 15 years toward focusing on what I have to offer the world and pulling together years of experience and wisdom. Just Sunday past, January 6, I celebrated and honoured 40 years of marriage. 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Cynthia Breadnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01594451338849985090noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3572644340260069035.post-32514791157948502492019-01-10T08:21:00.001-05:002019-01-10T08:21:10.848-05:00Seven Steps to Change#breakingstibah<br />
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This hashtag is the beginning to finally sharing my passion and the work I have longed to do for many years. Spending the past 15 years wondering when I will be "qualified" and continuing to educate and explore I have finally arrived where I need to be. Where is that you ask? Here, today and in the moment.<br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZwZjhG3wjcCxcdYO_GcKP2ZNWeuC_pCgDbo4TaYDf-sVGcnADqh_TAKILJATVJhz-yuLH2VZlDwgQDa58t4WfmX24HrhE3pBExH3j12Xl3__Er_0d9vOo2oxlVAj_CTQzOIzTZ9996A89/s1600/bridge-over-troubled-waters.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="319" data-original-width="400" height="255" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZwZjhG3wjcCxcdYO_GcKP2ZNWeuC_pCgDbo4TaYDf-sVGcnADqh_TAKILJATVJhz-yuLH2VZlDwgQDa58t4WfmX24HrhE3pBExH3j12Xl3__Er_0d9vOo2oxlVAj_CTQzOIzTZ9996A89/s320/bridge-over-troubled-waters.jpg" width="320" /></a>In 2005 my dad died. That year I felt a tug at my heart and a voice calling to me in the wilderness to share my heart. I wrote and delivered the eulogy at my father's funeral and it was the beginning of a journey. For the past 15 years I have been absorbing and searching for any and all teachings about emotional health, grief, loss, bereavement, personal growth and change. This search has revealed my first and most important change agent is myself.<br />
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As I have blossomed and now see the world through new eyes revealing much of what is dear to me and it has been there all the time, I was just steeped and buried in my own suffering. Suffering as defined by this quote, "You cannot suffer the past or the future because they do not exist. What you are suffering is your memory and your imagination" and this is the foundation of my work.<br />
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I have learn to be present to myself ... Watch for the seven steps as I build them into words and practical application and post them for sharing.<br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjkdzamZ-JxpWeQ-EcSK_dg6Y1qryxmOovR6ZMKsVd_LQwDWAA-gSq0kYyhkm0BteFjyJRnjbiz8QoIp59tCrynuQOIZtqIvEl70go1TdoeRBzzwFJZP3bhG4f_kZbPMNQjz7metqQeEr9V/s1600/SSPX0561.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="1280" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjkdzamZ-JxpWeQ-EcSK_dg6Y1qryxmOovR6ZMKsVd_LQwDWAA-gSq0kYyhkm0BteFjyJRnjbiz8QoIp59tCrynuQOIZtqIvEl70go1TdoeRBzzwFJZP3bhG4f_kZbPMNQjz7metqQeEr9V/s320/SSPX0561.jpg" width="320" /></a>Many people have said to me "start your own church" when my journey was so dark ... That is not a focus what I want to build is a bridge ... for others to walk across and span the chasm of suffering so it can be viewed and understood for its beauty. <br />
Cynthia Breadnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01594451338849985090noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3572644340260069035.post-15929562369717341492018-12-28T09:12:00.002-05:002018-12-28T09:12:55.441-05:00#breakingstibah ... what is it and how can it be part of my life ...As I peruse facebook and read the posts I look for things that stir in me a new thought or desire. Today somewhere in my visual travels through words, posts and pictures I was brought back to a verse in the bible. Full disclosure, is I have studied the bible in depth as I am a lapsed seminarian; one who studied in seminary. I graduated with a degree called masters of divinity and stood to be ordained in the Christian church. It did not happen. Why? Because "god" had better plans and I, although fighting and screaming, had to respect that. How do I define "god"? ... that is a good question for anyone and respect for this question is top on my priority list.<br />
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The verse Romans 8:33 "Who will bring a charge against God's chosen ones? Since God is the one who justifies, who has the power to condemn?" With my own travels and journey scripture has taken on new meaning as wisdom literature and I respect it in a whole new way. As I read it, I have come to a point where I can see beyond my own baggage of the ancient Christian doctrine that was developed to keep the masses in check and to paint "god" as a judgemental and punishing force. I have deeply connected with the energy that turns the earth, keeps the stars in the sky and produces a tomato from a seed. I believe firmly that I am a chosen one because, based on the mysterious understanding of far more than I can understand, I know I choose to be here, present and positive. I choose to have a faith in love and kindness. With this understanding and choice there can be no charge against me and I live in a peaceful way. I feel no condemnation because I see the world in a way that allows for a humble spirit and know that human frailty causes great pain and poor choices. I cannot be condemned unless I condemn myself ... that is the hard work, choosing to love the self.<br />
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#breakingstibah is my way of teaching what I have found to be true. Bringing others to their own realization and laying out a path of firm ground for anyone to walk and find themselves. #breakingstibah is a means to an end. A route .... it is a community building exercise ....<br />
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I have come so far ... and it is so exciting and life giving. Cynthia Breadnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01594451338849985090noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3572644340260069035.post-52460652545733495202018-12-24T10:38:00.000-05:002018-12-24T10:38:01.551-05:00Change is hard however always possible!<div style="background-color: white; color: #1d2129; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, system-ui, ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 14px; margin-bottom: 6px;">
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I cannot forget or sweep under the carpet the past however what I can to is learn from it and remember how it is important to honour my choices and honour how I handled a situation when I was less observant.</div>
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No more. I have changed and I chose to change. I took life by the horns and wrestled it back around to face me. Like riding on the back of a runaway horse I was the passenger in my own life. The hitchhiker that had been picked up by a runaway train, living in the car of blame, victimhood and complicity. Every way I looked at it I was attached to this whirling dervish of energy I called my life.</div>
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No more. It has taken a long time to change, mold and break the routines of my own destruction. Nothing happens overnight. I have lots of work to do yet.</div>
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How about you? Have you looked into the mirror lately? Have you held up a looking glass to your life so you can see what you need to change?</div>
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Be your own best friend and change your thoughts and your life!</div>
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God Is Consciousness! Even more than that God is also the unconsciousness of human existence... it is that which it means to exist.</div>
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Quote by Matthew Fox "Our capacity to think, reflect, ask questions, become aware and more aware, expand awareness, all this is consciousness. Is all this God? Is God our awareness--including our awareness and experience of God? Psychologist R. D. Laing thought this; he felt that 'God is our experience of God.' Deepak Chopra says: 'God is pure <span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline; font-family: inherit;">consciousness, the source of all thoughts, feelings, and sensations.'"</span></div>
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Two fish are swimming and one says, "how's the water?"** The other says, "what water?" "Follow me!" says the first. They swim hard straight up and burst forth into the air above. While up there the first fish says ... "see, there, that's water!" and then they plunge back down. Often we cannot see or be aware of the "water".</div>
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So #breakingstibah asks "how's the water?" Do you know? Are you aware? Come walk with me, talk with me and grow!</div>
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2019 is almost here. What goals are you setting for personal growth? What challenges are you laying out for change? #breakingstibah ... a plan, a course, a path.</div>
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Cynthia Breadnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01594451338849985090noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3572644340260069035.post-6582787577049316022018-12-05T14:13:00.001-05:002018-12-17T12:59:51.945-05:00Breaking Stibah .... So here we are, you and I, talking about breaking stibah. Sounds like a term that would be attached to a foreign language, a religious ritual or maybe messing with rules and regulations. Honestly, it is all of that wrapped up into a lifetime of learning. It's something to be discussed over a cup of tea.<br />
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What is breaking stibah?<br />
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It is a pattern interrupt.<br />
It is a change of direction.<br />
It is process.<br />
It is "the way" you will travel.<br />
It is learning.<br />
It is hope.<br />
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I am Cynthia Breadner and in 2019 I will celebrate my 60th birthday. This may not be significant to anyone but me, however, I have witnessed 60 years on this planet and every one of the last 39 years has been filled with learnings and life's lessons. Not one of the last 40 years have I not wondered, "why I am here on this earth". Not one of the last 61 have I not known there is a purpose to my existence of which I now better understand.<br />
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More recently, over the last 10 - 15 years, I have been engaged in a spiritual journey to find the answers. I found the answer. The answer I found is there are no answers. What I found is more questions and how we ask and live those questions propel us forward and how we grow. This is what breaking stibah is all about. Breaking stibah is about breaking through, breaking routine, breaking historical learning and breaking out of your shell.<br />
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The word "stibah" was inspired through my reading of the Harry Potter books this past year. I had pledged to read 12 books cover to cover in 2018 and, with my daughter's probing, I decided to read the seven HP books. I am currently reading #6 The Half Blood Prince ... I have completed more than my 12 promised books, some were audio as I was reading the Harry Potter series. In the first book there was the mirror of erised .... from the book comes this, "Erised stra ehru oyt ube cafru oyt on wohsi" At this point I am not going to go into what it all means. If you figure it out maybe it will interest you enough to find out more about my programs, teaching and leading. If you cannot see it, then come to my introductory program and you will learn what it is all about.<br />
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What if I show you everything you need to know?</div>
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Cynthia Breadnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01594451338849985090noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3572644340260069035.post-83170117456885165882018-09-09T16:43:00.003-04:002018-09-09T16:43:50.914-04:00Fall Programming2018 Fall ... where did this year go? I can't believe it!<br />
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Now the fall is here I will be launching new programming to add to the <a href="http://momondays.com/barrie" target="_blank">momondays Barrie</a> work I am doing. It is so much fun to build a stage event featuring storytelling and have it be enjoyed by so many people. Please be sure to visit the link and if you are in the area come to an event.<br />
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The work I will be launching this fall is deep in alignment with the practices I have been studying for the past many years. With going back to school in 2007 as a mature student and learning so much about personal journeying and spiritual care I find I am now able to share that with others. As humankind we struggle with grief, loss and challenges in everyday life and often do not take the time to recognize or deal with the fallout. This is baggage that is carried forward into the rest of our life!<br />
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Caring for self by exploring the four quadrants of health is a deep and circular exploration. It is not done quickly, nor is it a one stop shop of learning. As a person uncovers trauma and peel back the emotional scarring they learn so much more about themselves. This is an ongoing practice.<br />
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I have been there and done this many times over and now am in a safe and rewarding place where I can help others begin their exploratory journey into the body, mind and soul. <br />
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When you are inspired to change and make a difference in your life you can only become better. Better for you and for your family and friends. Come with me and join one of my workshop series that is happening in your area. If you wish to have me facilitate the four quadrant workshop in your town, please contact me at 647 234 9351 or Cynthia.Breadner at gmail dot com.<br />
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<br />Cynthia Breadnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01594451338849985090noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3572644340260069035.post-83650367604447705042018-07-24T07:38:00.003-04:002018-07-24T07:38:33.849-04:00the flow of currency<div class="" data-block="true" data-editor="pntl" data-offset-key="3fbc6-0-0" style="background-color: white; color: #1d2129; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, system-ui, ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 14px; white-space: pre-wrap;">
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: helvetica neue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 14px;">This morning I ran hard ... 6.34 kms in about 42 minutes. I could taste the salt and feel the sweat running down between my breasts and my shoulder blades. My eyes were burning as the sweat trickled into them. My nose running with heavy mucus, as it seems to be when I push, that I must snort out to the side, into the grass, taught to me by my dad, clearing the passages of my breathing. It feels good to push my body and know it can take it. It feels satisfying to know my heart is beating, my lungs are breathing and my legs are working hard. This body, 59 years old, is meant to work hard, meant to sweat, meant to strain and push. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: helvetica neue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 14px;">Isak Dinesen (1885-1962) was right. "Unlike men, who are often getting a little shaky as they approach their sixties or retirement age, many women are feeling more independent, more optimistic, more powerful." (<a href="https://www.amazon.ca/Younger-Next-Year-Women-Strong/dp/0761147748/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1531660093&sr=8-1&keywords=younger+next+year+for+women" target="_blank">Younger Next Year</a> pg. 4) Women can come into their own as they reach their wisdom years and I am living proof. Seems like just yesterday I was a young woman of 26 with a baby in her arms heading to the doctor. The baby was only weeks old and I was struggling with body image and dropped to a frail 105 lbs before realizing I was killing myself.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: helvetica neue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 14px;">Women have a lifetime of change. Biologically we go through so much and endure hormonal changes with or without grace. We either welcome these changes as a woman's journey and embrace it spiritually or we fight kicking and screaming, angry to the core. Either way, as we hit our wise years there begins a journey of understanding. We begin to realize how mother earth nurtures us and we begin to embrace the feminine of our being. </span></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: "helvetica neue", Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">I am there now, at 59 years old I begin the one year preparation to move into the second half of my life. I have decided to live to 120 years of age and do it with grace and with strength. This comes from 59 years of dragging and struggling with fitting into the world when I have come to realize I am to stand out. I am choosing to shoot for the biological stretch, of what the human body is capable of, and live to well over <a href="https://www.nytimes.com/2016/10/06/science/maximum-life-span-study.html" target="_blank">100 years old</a>. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: helvetica neue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">Just in the past year, I have witnessed what my body is capable of taking on. In March 2017, right after my grandson was born, my daughter was beginning her journey back to strength. Her words, "you should train with me Mom!" Those six words changed my life. I have always been fit and continued a life of strength training and group fitness classes, but had dropped off consistency or any sort of plan. By her encouraging and, more-so, challenging me I stepped onto the road and began. </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white;"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: helvetica neue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px;">Last year, I completed five long distance running races and three triathlons in my first year of training. That was where it started. The seed was planted and my desire to grow this challenge began. </span></span></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: "helvetica neue", Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">Today I ran 6.34 kms in about 42 minutes. Yesterday I rode with the </span><a href="https://www.barrietriathlonclub.com/" style="background-color: white; font-family: "helvetica neue", Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;" target="_blank">Barrie Baydogs</a><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: "helvetica neue", Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"> social ride 42 kms in 2.25 hrs and on Thursday last week I swam 500 meters in open water at Kempenfelt Bay. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: "helvetica neue", Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">I choose to continue to grow and listen to my spirit. I choose to be healthy and let go of the stresses in our world. I am caring about my own needs and bringing them to the forefront of my life and ensuring I am taken care of, because if I don't take care of me, who will?</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: "helvetica neue", Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">Walk with me on this journey. Stay beside me and let me encourage you ... Can you put yourself first for a change and let go of the world, just for a minute?</span><br />
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How I feel today...... <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xJ87DJl_jbc" target="_blank">Click here!</a></div>
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Good morning fellow turtles... today I am seeking energy from my fellow turtles. I am working on rebirth of me with yet a new journey in life. This seems to be my life's work is working on life's plan. It scares me so much and I end up pulling in my head and my feet and curling up in my shell afraid of the world. Do you ever feel like that?</div>
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It takes so much strength of character to stay out of my shell and continue plugging along, when the road gets challenging and scar<span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline; font-family: inherit;">y! Finances are so tight right now and it becomes my main focus which is where I then go ... toward tight finances. This happens when we laser beam our focus on something. It manifests.... </span></div>
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Please think of me today as you live life abundantly and know there is always enough and life is not about money. Life is about getting out there, showing up and being strong and the money will take care of itself. Today I must keep the intention of goodness in my sights and fear not that I am struggling with my financial energy today. There are four other currencies I can draw from ... Spiritual, Emotional, Mental, and Physical. I teach about them, funny how the teacher must be reminded to also be the student!</div>
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The video is so relevant ... today I feel like I am on my back! Fellow turtlers please come with your energy and help me back on my feet! We are a tribe and in tribal life we gather in community in any way that supports the greater good!</div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">How I feel today...... </span><a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xJ87DJl_jbc" style="font-family: inherit;" target="_blank">Click here!</a></div>
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Check him out! <a href="https://kevinbulmer.com/" target="_blank">Kevin Bulmer</a> His wonderful talk "No Schedule Man" is powerful!</div>
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<span lang="EN-US">Most readers have watched the movie The
Wizard of Oz, a childhood favourite of mine, where so much happens that is
metaphorical even though we mostly watch it for entertainment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is scary in places, scary like real life
can be scary.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am a movie buff and
enjoy watching movies from a “what lesson can I learn” perspective.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">The Wizard of Oz is particularly special in
my life as I look back on more years than I expect to have going forward.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am bearing down on my 60<sup>th</sup>
birthday in 2019 and over the past year have been contemplating my life’s work
and my journey so far. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">Most recently I started a small bucket list
that reflects a year or two out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am
not sure why I am not looking beyond 2019, I just am not, I have chosen to list
the things I want to do this year and in the actual year I turn 60.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I believe this is because I have never looked
forward before.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It seems my life has
been a watch my toes kind of life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
have watched, head down, each step taken, and it has proven to be a bleak way
to live. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As I have created this small short-term
bucket list it feels like it is the key to the longer story, the next thirty
years as Tim McGraw sings about in his popular country song.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">The longest goal I have set is to visit
Ireland, the home of my ancestors in 2019. Visit the place where the original
six children, who migrated with their parents in the 1800’s, were conceived and
connect with the deep roots of my DNA.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A
shorter goal I set was to sing at the music festival this spring, which I did
on April 4 in Barrie, Ontario.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
received first place and a medal to show for my efforts.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I suppose I should tell you I was the only
one in my category so first place was inevitable however that did not make the
victory any less sweet. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">How does this relate to The Wizard of
Oz?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In the movie Dorothy and her
collection of misfit friends make their way to Oz, together in community, each
seeking their own.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Their own deep yearning
for something to tell them they are worthy, successful and give them a reason
for living.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The Scarecrow seeking a
brain, the Tin Man a heart, and of course, the Cowardly Lion seeking courage
and of course, Dorothy who simply wants to go home.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All these treasured characters are a part of
me, and a part of you, and are the fodder for a life’s journey.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Singing in the festival and gaining the first-place
certificate, the inexpensive medal hanging on a ribbon and the words of the
adjudicator satisfied my seeking for courage.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>In the sweet words of the adjudicator, she told me I was “brave” as not
many people my age grace her with their presence in a music festival.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I performed a song that, I have told many,
chose me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When I decided in January to
register and sing in the spring festival, my teacher said, “what do you want to
sing?” I had no idea!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So, I went to her
home and she had pulled out some books. They were laying on the floor.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I reached for one book in particular.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was the musical score from the Broadway
production “Jekyll and Hyde”.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As I
flipped lightly through it, the book paused on the song “Someone Like You” and
I read the words.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I said, “this is
it!”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>-- “… if someone like you, found
someone like me, my heart would take wing, I’d feel so alive …” <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">From 2007 – 2013 I was in university, at 47
years old I decided to get post-secondary education.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had finished grade 12 in 1977 and never
pursued anything further.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>During the
BAHons. program, from May 2007 – August 2009, I was most often the oldest in
the class, with the exception of some of the professors.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>From that straight into a theological
master’s degree. From August 2009 – December 2012 I watched my toes as I put
one foot in front of the other to achieve this massive mission.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I achieved in six years a Bachelor of Arts
degree (with honours) and a master’s degree receiving the diplomas to prove,
like the Scarecrow, I have a brain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It
was bittersweet success that was clouded with personal trauma, self-doubt and
mental depression.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Although the
respected institutions of knowledge awarded me with the necessary credentials I
still was, like Dorothy, seeking home.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The credentials were lost in the muck and the mire. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">Both singing in the festival and beginning
to reflect on the anniversary of my 60<sup>th</sup> year has created in me a
need to seek a heart.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Like the Tin Man
my chest has felt empty for years.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
have felt paralyzed with rusty joints and immobilized by an emptiness I could
not explain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I cannot explain where I
lost my oil can or when I put JOY on the dusty top shelf of my daily quest for
health and happiness, but I know I did.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Somewhere along my life I lost the oil of life, I lost JOY.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>JOY is the oil that keeps a person pliable
and free moving.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">Deep within myself, singing that song on
April 5 at 3:55 pm my heart awakened.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
was somehow given permission to have heart, take pride in my accomplishments,
and know I have great courage and I found home! I found my Wizard deep within
and the Wizard told me “Someone like you” loves me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Powerful
words that I had practiced for weeks to prepare for the staging of my coming
out party.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In all my personal glory, I
came out of hiding that day and I now know someone like you loves me. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">Who is this “you” I am talking about?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This “you” is the deepest part of myself that
has been hidden and overcome with messages from my past that had my ego in the
driver’s seat.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This “you” is my desire
to be whole, loving and steadfast in my own journey toward fulfillment of
pleasure in life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was asked recently
if I was often told “don’t get too big for your britches”? A light went
on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was told exactly that many, many
times as a child and a young adult and I believed until now I needed to fit the
britches that were made for me by well-meaning family members.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>On the stage of that music festival I took
off those britches and am now fitting well into a new pair!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Through all my theological education where
seeking the divine becomes book work education, on that stage I found the sacred
is deep within and divinely beautiful.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It all came together.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">I recognize I have a brain, I am smart and
have much to offer the world.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">I recognize I have courage to be the best I
can be, and trust it is received with the passion intended.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">I know I have a heart and JOY has begun to
make its way back into my life. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">Best of all I know there is no place like
home!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>HOME is deep in my own soul where
my brilliance, my courage, and my heart joyfully play together within my
essence and like sunshine on a dreary day pours out for others to see!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">There’s no place like home, there’s no
place like home, there’s no place like home.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size: 10.0pt;">Cynthia Breadner is a self-made entrepreneur, who for
the last 15 years, has been motivating and inspiring people from a stage and is
the host of momondays in Barrie.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She is
an accomplished speaker sharing time with groups, large and small, who listen
for encouragement and support.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Cynthia
is a certified group fitness coach and personal trainer and she is trained as a
healthy eating and weight loss coach.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In
2017 she completed six cross country races, three triathlons and a half
marathon.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>CynthiaBreadner.com<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
<!--EndFragment--><br />Cynthia Breadnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01594451338849985090noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3572644340260069035.post-67949691146512387642018-04-22T10:31:00.000-04:002018-04-22T10:35:07.391-04:00How to love your mother ...In the most recent past I have made a large shift in my life. I cannot believe the chaos it has created in my day to day operations. It is like I have taken a stand against myself and myself is shocked. Myself is in disarray and confusion. Myself is asking "what the heck?" Myself is asking "what is she doing?" Myself is saying "I cannot seem to drag her back into her old habit!" and stomps off in despair. This is challenging to say the least.<br />
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When a person sets out to break a habit that is 20, 30 or even 40 years old the ego is truly compromised. The ego (another way of saying Edging God Out, however you define GOD) has been in charge for a very long time so when a person allows the passions and the deep yearnings to surface and be the driving force the ego is displaced. Funny how that happens.<br />
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It is not easy to drop the ego and stand on passion. Society and culture do not support a passion driven life and marketing is geared to rev up the ego and drive materialist needs. Live in a nice house, own property, own clothes, drive a nice car, articulate what you do for a living, standardize your hair style, lose that five pounds, etc., etc.,<br />
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I have this photo of my mother and I over my desk in my work space. I have built a name for my business using her name and part of my dad's name and I have spent the last 10 years since her death trying to reconcile with how to love her from beyond. I remember people telling me when I was caring for her to enjoy her as I would be sad when she died. I did not believe them, now I do. I wish I had her back because I am now living in the space where she lived after I was born.<br />
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My mother was 40 years old when she had me ... so right now I would have been eighteen years old when she was 58. How would I cope with a 18 year old right now? In a changing world where I look to my children's children and it scares me what kind of life they will have on a planet that we are slowly depleting the resources. A place were there will be war over water and a place where the threat of complete annihilation is always only the push of a red button away at any given moment.<br />
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I am learning how to love my mother by living the best I can. As I develop and grow myself I do it in honour of my mother's contribution to this plant in her own way. She developed me the best way she knew how and I now can honour her by being my passionate and holistic self.<br />
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How do you love your mother ... mother earth, mother of ideas, mother of your soul ...<br />
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